Unfortunately, these laws that are meant to protect are also open to abuse.
In Ireland, the process of requesting an involuntary mental health assessment, part of this country's 2001 Mental Health Act, is straight-forward: a relative, friend, police officer, doctor, member of the public - apparently almost anyone - can request that a person be subjected to an involuntary mental health assessment. Moreover, the assessment can lead to an involuntary admission into a psychiatric hospital if the assessment indicates that a) "You have a mental illness, severe dementia or significant intellectual disability and there is a serious risk that you may cause immediate and serious harm to yourself or others" or b) "You have a mental illness, severe dementia or significant intellectual disability and your judgement is so impaired that your condition could get worse if you were not admitted to hospital for treatment that could only be given to you in hospital and going into hospital would be likely to improve your mental health significantly."
The above conditions are even contained in a free online booklet, "Your Guide to the Mental Health Act 2001", which we can all access with a simple click of a button! Have a read. You'll be shocked to find that almost anyone can be involuntarily incarcerated.
Which is exactly what happened to me.
Reading the above 'rules' for involuntary mental assessment and admission, I quickly realized (and hope you do too) that these rules make a number of assumptions. First, they assume that those requesting the involuntary assessment are telling the truth and/or have a damned good reason for bringing this action: in other words, they are certain that you are a serious threat to yourself or others. Second, it assumes that the person who is the subject of the assessment really will become worse without intervention, and will actually improve if admitted to hospital even against their will (and possibly better judgement).
Based on what happened to me, the 'rules' need to be changed.
Lose Hope All Ye Who Enter Here
In my room at the hotel, a room that had become my sanctuary, I rose early. Though I had gone to bed past midnight, though I was exhausted, I found sleep impossible to obtain. Only 30 hours had passed since the fire. Since that time I had managed less than 5 hours of sleep and a single sandwich to keep me going. Sitting on the bed, I knew that I was tired, hungry, scared, confused, and overwhelmed. I also knew that despite my mental and emotional state I was going to have to quickly find a new place to live. I could not afford to stay in a hotel forever.
The previous day's encounter with my ex-wife, my ex-GP, my daughter, and the health practitioners who had insisted on a mental health assessment haunted me and filled me with anxiety. I knew that I needed time: time to get my bearings; time to take a breath; time to sleep and eat; time to figure out how to get help and from whom. I decided to phone a good friend.
I chatted with him at length about what had happened. This person, a fellow I had long trusted, seemed genuinely concerned and helpful. Still dressed in my pyjamas, I began to talk with him about what to do next. He seemed intent on confirming which hotel I was at and in which room number. I told him.
As we continued to talk I heard a knock on the door. Opening it, I found my daughter and ex-wife standing there. They moved aside. A group of people marched into my room: two men and a women both from the Irish Health Services department. A cop - or were there two? - followed them. Within my hotel room, a private space that I had already paid for, a place that I deemed a momentary sanctuary from the nightmare that I had, and was again, experiencing, they surrounded me.
They asked me to come with them. I refused. They told me I had no choice. I was to be committed to the local hospital's psychiatric unit for evaluation. My friend was still on the phone. I pleaded with him to help me. Little did I know that he had been contacted by my wife who had convinced him that I urgently needed psychiatric intervention. He agreed, and unknowingly became an accomplice in my incarceration.
Fear and anger rose within me. Knowing that I had no other option, I agreed to come with them. I asked them to let me go into the bathroom to change into street clothes. Afraid that I would harm myself - a fear that was unjustified - they refused. If I wanted to change I would have to do that in front of my daughter.
The hotel manager appeared at the door, a manager that I knew. He couldn't look me in the eye. With the Health Services goons closely guarding me, the cop following, my ex-wife and daughter following them, and all of us following the hotel manager, I was frog-marched out of the hotel and to a waiting hospital van. I was forced inside and sat between two of the goons.
I was being treated like a common criminal. The only embarrassment that I did not experience was the click of restraints snapped about my wrists and legs. As you can imagine, I was swept up in an emotional whirlwind: fear, anger, humiliation, shame, guilt...all of these were added to the pressure cooker of emotions that were the result of the breakdown and fire. I was now teetering on an edge of insanity.
I was taken to the hospital. There I was grilled by a psychiatrist that I never met again. Not once did he ask about the fire. Instead, he asked questions that I now don't remember, so upset was I. I was introduced to a nurse. She asked me about my current use of medication. I was taking Lexipro at the time for depression, a course that had been prescribed by a doctor. They had somehow survived the fire. She stripped me of them. I was then led into the main psychiatric unit. There I met other nurses and introduced myself. Somehow, I managed to keep a grip. Rather than showing the heated anger that I felt, I told them simply: "I'm being held here against my will. I ask you all to remember that."
I turned as the main door was closed and locked behind me. For the first time in my life I was imprisoned. I had no way out. I was at the mercy of the staff that surrounded me. I had been incarcerated without benefit of any 'trial' and fully against my will.
Disoriented, hungry, and filled with a sense of injustice, I allowed myself to be led to the room that I would share with three others for the next six days.
Falling onto the bed, the only emotion that I can remember is one of absolute hopelessness. But finally I slept.
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